This Evening

Haven't been able to write anything since the first post because it has been an extremely busy time for me with school and work and pretty much life in general.

Two large research papers due at the beginning of April, right before finals. Someone please tell me why I decided to complete an English major! Oh my!

Two year anniversary with the bf is swiftly approaching. Wondering what, if anything, it will bring. Been wondering , lately about our future. Not in a bad, or a we're gonna break up way, but in the way that I feel that there is a good chance that we will be together for a while. Maybe not forever because I tend to be a wee bit cynical about relationships. I'm afraid to take the plunge, and indulge myself fully. It's kinda hard to articulate but its like I don't wanna give him every part of me because I fear change. How do I learn to get over my fear? I know that I will always be an individual but I think that a part of me fears that I will become one of "those" couples who seem to have one solid identity and no individuality. I'm too afraid I'm not the type to wander or get bored easily, I find myself content. More than content I guess is appropriate. I feel secure and happy and energized when we are together and when we are apart I feel like everything negative around me could be eliminated if I could just talk to him.

He's thinking about doing a cooking course that would, assuming he is hired afterward, take him away for five weeks at a time, returning for one. The money is really great but money won't be there for me when I need him. Its only a thought in his mind, and of course I encouraged him saying that we would have Skype dates and message one another but... Its so far into the future that its silly to even worry about it  now, and I would never hold him back for anything he wants to do but what about me? Is that a selfish thing to say? I love him and I never want to lose him but maybe there is some credence to that old saying about loving something and letting it free and if it comes back to you then it was meant to be...

First Post!!!!!

I wanted to do something exciting in my first post but I can't really come up with much. Down with a nasty flu these past few days, so my head is a little fuzzy. 

I guess to start I'll give some more information about myself. My boyfriend and I have together for almost two years now, our love of reptiles beginning within the first six months or so. He told me that he was getting a snake, and I (at the time I was terrified of snakes) told him that if he got a snake we would have to stay at my house. Surprisingly, I became attached at once.The first reptile we ever got was a candy cane corn snake. However, we have come to the realization that Perseus is not a candy cane corn snake, but is a beautiful snake none the less. Next we procured a ball python, who seen became my responsibility. He seems to have an aggressive personality so my boyfriend, being chivalrous, wouldn't go near him. Unfortunately, after about eight months, the ball python passed away due to an unnoticed illness contracted at the pet store we purchased him from.

After the ball python, I knew that the next reptile we would have to get had to be a bearded dragon. One weekend, we went out an bought all of the light fixtures and heating elements that we needed. Picked up dishes and substrate and then began our search. We found a breeder online and the next day we went to get one beardie. We ended up leaving with two, brothers of course. Kept them in the same enclosure for about a month and then separated them when we noticed dominant displays. Happy to say that Bruce and Darwin are doing very well, with their one year birthday quickly approaching in May. We custom built new enclosures for them, roughly 4fx3f.

After the beardies came a leopard gecko. Hes pretty cool, his ail is really starting to fatten up.

Finally, the newest member to our family is a captive bred golden tegu. He is male and was bought from a pet store. You may disagree with my reasoning, but when I say him there i new he wasn't getting the proper care and had to take him home. After some research, and getting everything that was required, we went back and got him. I am happy to say that withing the three weeks of him being home, he has calmed down tremendously, although no where near tame as of yet. We made sure he had plenty of substrate and immediately he began to burrow, something he had been unable to do at the pet store. It amazes me how they can act all high and mighty explaining to a customer the importance of proper care when they do not practice what they preach. I don't want to get started with the way that I feel about pet stores!

I also have a puppy, a husky lab mix who is also celebrating her first birthday in May. 

Pictures soon to follow of  all animals.

Feel free to ask any questions.

That's all for now and remember to draw a circle around the one you love because a heart can be broken but a circle goes on forever -